Another Chemo Day!!

Actual event date is Monday, October 29th. First day of second cycle.

I’m sad to say, watch your news, another mom insane! My sister-in-law, Emily and brother-in-law, Mark, niece Carlie (1 ½) and nephew Daniel (4) all came to Tennessee to care for the girls. They will help Mike while he continues to work, and not one week but two! Another mom to be escorted out, arms wrapped in a straight jacket! Lol! But it’s that feeling for me knowing my kids are in good hands, not fearing their well being that allows me to put me first here! Knowing daddy is there to tuck them in, giving them sweet kisses! Humming Amazing Grace if need. You are, right Mike? Lol! (Although I think our kids will trade us in for Aunt Sonia and Aunt Emily if given a choice of parents or Aunts, lol!)

So off I went! My luggage feeling so deserted, all alone!

My flight was uneventful! Actually pretty lonely, not having the kids. Thinking about their “sarbursts!” Lol! I arrived in Michigan, headed for Sonia’s, for it was dinner time once again! Lol! Ate another yummy meal, and hung out with my family! (Still wondering when the bill will be set on the table, pen and credit card slip to sign! Lol) It’s so nice to see my family. Seems like another day. My father, Aunt T and Uncle Tony all waited for my arrival, just a glance of Chemo Girl eased my father’s mind. It was a sweet moment to see his relief; I was “ok.” We talked and talked, laughed and laughed. Spending time with my niece and nephew! Something I never get to do, as I always have my kids. But missing my girls! Little Bella only greeting me at the door to ask about her cousins. Already missing her girly posse!

Monday starts with another day at the Cancer Center. I started my day with lab work, they had to check my white and blood counts before I could start chemo. Vital signs next, imagine that...I gained three pounds this past cycle! Lol! Next I sat in their waiting room observing all the patients. Mostly older men, blessed with their wives beside them. Still feeling so sad for each of them. It must be hard to spend so many years together and have to face cancer at an older age. I wanted to take their chemo. I wanted to fight their fight. Their's that Rocky feeling that will get me in trouble! Lol!

I could easily see the new patients versus the old. The old new the rules. We knew the process and what was accepted and what was not. We whipped out our blue cards and completed our forms without question. Sonia was in disbelief, you even had a rank in the cancer center, rookies vs. pros! Lol! Then I met with Dr. Chugh and Ms. Aaron to make a plan. They decided I was ready for more chemo! However, my red blood cell count was rather low, they’ll watch it a bit longer and more than likely I will need a blood transfusion. Was thinkin' of robbing Sonia’s house of blood tonight! Lol!

Most of the day I ate. And ate. And pottied. And ate. And pottied. But I never got sick, not even nauseas. I was so relieved. But I know my day is coming, possibly even worse than before. The doctors tell you there’s no cumulative effect except for fatigue. The patients tell it exists. I just hope for the best and live on prayer. And let me tell you, I don’t mess around. If it hurts, I simply ask God to CARRY ME! Lol! Of course I visited other patients and even had a few visit me. It was like being part of a club, no one wearing wigs or scarves, our balded head, a sign of our courage. All of us on the same team. All of us fighting for our lives. Sad to know so many of us.

Sonia came to visit me today! Dressed like a Mommy Diva, continuing to be a mommy, to |Chemo Girl!haha I say I don’t need visitors but it is really nice. It’s nice to talk about our kids, laugh at our kids and have a friend. We laughed so hard and cracked our jokes. And uninterrupted talks, neither of us with kids. Lol! They finally released me just after 8:30 pm! What a day, Ann Arbor shouting, “Who Let The Dogs Out, woof, woof woof! “ Haha…Sonia and I roaming the streets! (But I did see Sonia scouting the town as we drove through the city! Lol!) But we came home and the thoughtful person she is, she went grocery shopping for me and we called it a night. But not before another round of sister talks and laughs!

Looking forward to another good chemo day today! (Tuesday!)