So the Energizer Bunny trades in for the local brand batteries but not for long!
I started my day at 4:30 am, I just couldn’t sleep. So I soaked myself in a warm bath, hoping I lost the hair on my legs,one less thing to do, not my luck! Haha! I then logged on and read my cheers from all around the world! You guys are amazing, always lifting me up! It was such great pleasure to read so many ra-ras at an hour I should be sleeping, my hubby, my chemo and me!
I looked at pictures of my girls, imagining holding them, imagining kissing them, smelling their skin! How I missed them so much, it’s just not fair!
We arrived at the clinic at 8:00 am. A bit late but only to us, we can come when we want, I just like to get home early. Mike trailing behind, as he flirts with the lady who stamps his parking pass, saving more money! Haha, she’s like 65+ and sweet as ever! Jane comes to say "Hi." She’s one of my nurses, we share so many stories and she calls me Eva! Same routine weighing in, another pound gained! They said this would happen because of all the extra fluids. Soon to be a floating whale, but still alive! Lol! I walk to my room, leave a urine sample and we start the drugs! Mike off to get his free coffee! Did I ever tell you, he’s such a cheapo! Except when it comes to his "girls." (That includes me!)
Off he goes to his "office" for another days work!
I prop my feet, read a book and fall asleep! How bad could this be! But still missing my girls! Awaken by my cell phone, a message for me. It’s Maria, letting me know she was on her way with lunch! Yahooo! More food! More weight! Every chemo girls dream! Lol!
After my first bag of drugs, I decide to walk to the library in the Cancer Center. A small library but so many free brochures (yes I’m a cheapo too!) and many books specifically on cancer. I was thrilled to find many books for children. Books that help mommys and daddys explain to children that mommy has cancer. I thought I’d never do this the girls so young, but read a few and decided we’d share the news, mommy has cancer. The books advise, if we don’t tell our children they may blame themselves or lose trust in us and we can’t have that. I was so excited about my hour visit to the library, my chemo and me!
I headed to my room to find Maria has checked in too! Her laptop out, her phone just a ringin! Sitting quietly in the rocker, eating her lunch! (Forgetting her manners, wait for the guest!lol) She looked like a good patient! The nurses all eager to eat my lunch if I didn’t return soon! I had a half of a vegetable sandwich and a few fries. I just wasn’t hungry. Although, I had no problem finishing my Cheese Danish! Only starting after Maria ate hers. We have the Biggest Loser contest going it started in Chicago when I didn’t know I had cancer. She’s let me know cancer will not be an excuse, I must pay up if I lose! So cheapo me am working it hard but knowing my partner in crime ate hers, so did I! Lol!
We sat there all day. Chatting away. Just like sisters do. Around 5:00, Mike picked me up and she went home. It was a fun day, reminding me of the times we shared an apartment. Wondering now, how either of us "heard!" Always talking, not sure who was listening!
Off we go, but not to our home. Rather to Meijer where we had a list. There I was, exhausted from my day, still looking for more. As Mike off loads the groceries, I notice a Hair Salon. I inquire about my haircut and the fact I want to donate it to Locks of Love! So excited to do something nice for more innocent children! I pick my cut and seat myself. To soon find out, I only have 8 ½ inches that will wrap in a ponytail. You must have 10! Once again, feeling my luck! But we proceed with a cut and dump my hair. I felt overwhelmed with emotions, sad, angry and tearful. I read about these emotions but thought how bad could it be? It’s your hair and it grows back. You can’t put that above living! But it’s a feeling, a feeling I couldn’t shake. I felt sad. I was mad! I recall looking at my tumor with such disgust, how could you do this? I continued to look at myself each snip. Finally convinced Mike to get his haircut too! Not a bad idea, he thinks. So there we were, for the first time in our LIFE, sharing a haircut moment, husband and wife! Me still sad, he lifting the spirit joking with the ladies!
Tonight, I’m real tired. Grateful for slight nausea and still no tossing! I feel pretty good physically but I am a bit sad. I want my hair! But I know I'm pretty and cancer can't take that!
Another day in the ring, a bit sluggish but gloves still up, no need to count!
One more day of chemo and then two and a half weeks off. Hoping to recover before the next cycle! Predictions that the second week the hardest, we'll still stay put.
